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Im feeling very vunerable at the moment! i am sitting next to this rope and i just want to use it so much! I know i should call my care coorinator but everytime i do she just says "o that must be hard we will work on it!" it feels like she is saying "just do it! if you want help you have to try and kill yourself and do a good jobb or i wont listen!" i know she isnt but it just feels like that! like i need to do something drastic to get the help i need to not do anything drastic! i dont even know if that makes sense but it does in my head!

sometimes it feels like you've got to make the biggest of cries for help to know that someone will listen, but darling, you just need to keep talking!
its the best way, just tell them how you feel and dont hold back, sometimes thats as much of a slap in the face as doing an act of SH

here if you need me,

much love

Allie

xxx

I'm sorry that you're having a hard time, when you are feeling like this it is really important that you alert someone to your feelings. Is there anyone else you could get in touch with who you feel might take you more seriously? Maybe if you phone your care coordinator you could explain to her how you interpret what she says. You don't need to do anything drastic to get help, you deserve help right now, please don't let it get to a very serious point. Just be honest with someone and explain to them that you feel you are not being taken fully seriously. If you can get rid of the rope then do. Please stay safe and take care. I'm here if you need anything.

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad at the moment. Just keep talking to your care coordinator, tell her how you feel. Hope you'll be okay.
Here if you need someone to talk to xx

Heya *Cuddles you* Im really sorry that your feeling like this. Do you have any idea of what it is thats made you feel like this? Do you want to talk to us some more about what it is thats made you feel like this? Is there anyone close to you who you could confide in? Its really important that when your feeling like this that someone knows so that they can keep an eye on you and help you. Please keep talking to your care co ordinator.

Please dont do anything dangerous, please get rid of the rope you dont need it and there are lots of other ways you can deal with your problems but please dont end your life. We all care about you and none of us want to see snything happen to you. Please keep talking to us. We are here for you. If you feel it would help you could talk to the supporters by contacting them using this link http://www.recoveryourlife.com/liveh...hp?LANGUAGE=en Please look after yourself be gentle with yourself.

Take care best wishes Ian

I called her up and tired to talk to her but she wasnt thier! Im all alone :crying:

no scrap that she just called up to make an apointyment for next week and i was feeling so low but i just couldnt tellh er i acted so happy and normal because i just couldnt tell her how bad and unsafe i am feeling at the moment!

Even if i had she coulnt have helped anyway! o i feel so lost and scared and alone!

*holds tight* darling cant you call her back! tell her how you really feel, i care about you, want to see you safe! lyl, please keep safe

xxxx

I feel so bad my brother and sister think i should die and are gonna scream untill i am dead! why do they think such horrible things? why do their thoughts hurt me so much?

I just want to be in peace! :crying: I want to be unconciencs!!! I just want to be normal!!

I would call my care coordinator up but she will
a)not be their
b)not care
c)not want to help
d)not help even if se could!

Could you ring someone else up instead? The Crisis Line, or ask to speak to the duty doctor, or speak to your new doctor?

I think the screaming will stop one day.

i have just about got thru the day by seeing my friend..i just do not know how i will cope on holiday with all this screaming in my head! :sad:

Oh My I NEED TO DIE! i cant hold onto hope anymore i cant find any to hold onto :crying: