Suicidal
 

I've never wanted to die before and I have no idea where this feeling has come from but I have an overwhelming urge to kill myself. I have a large amount of different medications and I'm seriously considering taking them. I'm scaring myself.
Can someone please just talk some sense into me or something.
I think I'll cut to see if it takes away the urge.
Sorry for being so pathetic.

Well the fact that you posted on here shows that you want help...
Do you know what has you feeling this way?

I know people say this all the time but its true:
-Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem...

You need to flush the pills down the toilet...

Can you call anyone to stay with you for a while?

I'm in control. I have a choice whether to take them or not. I'm just being pathetic. I won't throw them away. Its taken me a long time to save them all up and I just like knowing they are there and counting them and lining them up. My thoughts are all jumbled.
I'm sorry for this. To anyone who reads this please don't worry about me. I'll be fine. I'm just rambling

please try not to take any pills.
your not in any way pathetic your just having a hard time right now.
is there anyone you can talk to or call?
if you dont feel able to talk to anyone you know you could call the samaritans or if you feel really unsafe go to hospital.

How're you doing today?

I'm feeling a bit better. I slept all day. Just woke up. I always feel worse at night although still feel pretty hopeless and useless right now. I can't do anything. I don't even have the motivation to have a shower. I can't remember the last time I washed or got out of my pyjamas.

Have you thought about getting help for this?

I've had help before. I'm better than I used to be. I'm just being lazy and pathetic. Its my fault. I'm useless.

Just don't do it. Suicide is not the answer. Plus, overdose is one of the worst ways to try. It's painful, scary, long, and drawn out. I know lots of people who survive attempted suicide by overdose and it was the worst experience of their lives.
Also think about what you have to live for. Maybe it doesn't seem like much now, but is there a movie coming out soon you want to see, a trip you want t go on, a class you want to take? Just take a few little tiny things and use them as an excuse. That's what I do. Finding something to live for one little bit at a time.

There are lots of things I want to do but I never get around to doing them because I can't even wake up in the morning let alone leave the house and do something with my life. I'm just starting to wonder what the point is. I'm not contributing anything to the world or my family or my friends.

It might be time to seek for help again.

Hey im sorry your having such a hard time. I just want to say that im really proud of you for posting by posting you show you want help, im really pleased you posted. Can you think of anything thats made you feel like this? Please get rid of the pills oding really isnt worth it and causes severe damage alot of people that have od wished they hadnt and really regret doing it. Having the pills out in front of you will only tempt you to take them even more please get rid of them, you dont need them. I know this is hard for you but we are all here to support you, you dont have to go through this alone. Does anyone know that your feeling like this? Do you have any other support at all? Your not pathetic at all. Please keep talking, we are here for you.

Take care best wishes Ian