drowsy
 

i'm so tired. sitting here not knowing what to even type. i'm sorry
i havent cut because i'm tired
i only have 10 pills
i tired to suffocate myself earlier but it didnt work
all i do is eat and write and send emails and toss and turn when i'm supposed to be sleeping
i think i dont need anybody because they just make it worse but i wish i wasnt so alone right now
its because i push everyone away i dont think anyone would notic if i did it
i need to get drunk
gah i i i
sorry
i wish i could sleep. it hurts

hun, im sorry your feeling crappy. make sure you put those pills away. and if you've taken more that the daily amount i would go and get yourself check out.
you dont need alcohol, maybe go and run yourself a bath, put the radio on and relax and then snuggle into bed, mayb leave tv on so dont feel like you HAVE to go to sleep, just gradually drift off

take care xxx

Hi sweetheart, im so sorry to hear ure feeling this bad. Did u manage to get some sleep? How are u feeling this morning?
xx

Do you think a warm bath or milky drink or even reading a calm book might help to put your mind at ease? Try and keep the pills out of your eyeline otherwise it may tempt you to take them - and you can get through this without pills or alcohol. Do you have any sleeping medication or does your doctor know you have trouble sleeping?

How are you feeling now, sweetie? Take care,

xx

I hope you're feeling better. Do you know what made you feel so low? And how do you feel right now? Take care x

I'm really sorry for this post. Friday night was bad.
Thank you all for your support really appreciated :)
*hugs to all*
I'm going to take the sleeping thing a little more seriously and actually get it sorted. Thanks