not safe
 

i'm not feeling safe at the moment .
i really wana SI and i not done it when i been at home for nearly a year as i been in hospital and prison and only been out 2 week.
i'm so scared that i gona go too deep by accident as when i was in custody i was always ok because ther is always a 3 nurses on call,
i so worried i cant get the urges to go away and i cant deal with it .
i really want and need my medication and cant cope with out it .
i just wana go back where i was safe

wheres ur meds atm?
im sorry im in a really bad place in my head tonight
if u wanna talk, im here
xxxx

i not got any meds at the mo . i got released with nothin.

I'm sorry things are so hard for you at the moment.
sending love and hugs your way, x

I can imagine the sudden move from the hospital and prison to "normal life" being very traumatic and I can hear from your words you are struggling with this *cuddles safely* Do you have any after care/support so that there is someone you can talk to about these issues? Try and keep anything you could use to hurt yourself out of sight because it will tempt you if you can see it - and please keep talking to us. I think you are a very brave and strong person for coping with all you have and you can draw from that strength to help you through this bad time. Do you think distracting yourself with physical exercise or scribbling with red pens or anything would help to stop these urges? Even try using the ice cube or elastic band method? Take care and I'm always around if you want to talk,

xx

How are you feeling now?
Try to think positively. If you keep thinking about SIing, then it won't help you beat the urges. Distract yourself - there are hundreds of ways to do it. If you feel you need medication again, talk to you GP.
I hope you feel better soon. Take care, and hang on in there!
xx