PTSD Question *safe*
 

I am currently under the care of the crisis team :-(

I saw some people today and my flashbacks were bought up. They were really really surprised that someone could still have flashbacks so long after 'The Event'. I've had nightmares and other PTSD symptoms since it happened (15 years ago) and flashbacks since 1999.

Has anyone else here had flashbacks that long? They were pretty freaked out by it and it's kinda freaked me out too.

Thank-you for saying that, I'm glad it's not just me. I left feeling pathetic cos of still having them and them being so much worse these days. I must admit to being at a loss with the crisis team. They have been so useless with me in the past that I'm scared of them making me worse, so I hadn't thought of them not knowing about that area.

It's not just you. I have flashbacks that go right back to when I was 5 years old. That's 33 years ago! In actual fact, I have body memory flashbacks that go back much earlier, to my traumatic near-death at birth.

I'm really trying. But they were not best pleased cos I ended up doing 'naughty' things last night to sleep and SI'd before seeing them. It's so hard to explain what is happening and because they have been, frankly, appaulling in the past I'm scared to open up. They wanted me to talk about 'The Event(s)' more but I found it almost impossible.

I am really frightened of ending up with them doing what happened last time. I got told anyone who commited suicide when I was talking to them I was responsible for (I already felt responsible for my friends at that time recent suicide) and they are not there for maladaptive attention seekers. It effected me really deeply, as the night before I'd been thrown out of A&E having gone there really suicidal for 'time wasting' and combined it pushed me further into problems.

They went on and on about going to hospital if feeling bad, but I'm terrifed to do that. I have no-one in RL I can go to if they pull what they did last time and certainly the unlikely factors that kept me alive are impossible now.

I am 42 years old and my 121 therapist said that i have PTSD (and psychiatrist), i have flashbacks to when i was first abused at 7 years old.

I suffer and still suffer from flashbacks, nightmares, visions etc of traumatic things in childhoood....10 years plus.....

proffessionals (hospital) saud was rare and didnt really pay attention to it.

Mine has settled, but in times of stress and emoitional states it can return and be triggered.

hope that helps, sorry if not