Flirting with the edge
 

I am so tired of living feeling so miserablely. I hate myself and everything around me. I see a therapist and she knows that I'm having a rough time but I haven't told her about my suicidal feelings. I know that I should share them with her but it would be an awkward conversation that I would just rather not have. I'm also not completely sure that I want her to help me. . . I don't know. . . I'm confused myself.

if its hard to talk about it you can alwasy write it down and give it to her.

what is making you feel low right now? you could write everything in here, what you want to say to her and give it too her?

with therapy it always follows the same rule.
you get just as much out as you put in.
and your questions cant be answered if you dont open up.
its so hard to tell a counsellor all of thse feelings but it wont be awkward
because they deal with it everyday. and can help you and give you answers.
you could write a letter or an email to your therapist maybe?
then in your next session you can both discuss the letter?
stay safe <3