*sigh*
 

i tried to write down how i felt and couldnt put it into words so i deleted my whole post.
i feel really cr*p now im so ashamed by what is going on and i know its all my fault. i cant even tell a board of strangers.
I have done well to get where i am today and i am so wrorried that this will trigger is all off again.

i just dont know what to do anymore. :sad:

honey, i know how you feel, and i know how hard it can be to get it all out, even just to write it down can be impossible, it has taken me this last year of ryl to be able to talk about how i feel, but it does get easier, i promise

im always here for you, if you want to talk about anything, youre not alone
take care and keep fighitng
love lora xxx

sometimes strangers are the hardest people to tell because you dont want your first impression to be a bad one - that is a normal reaction. however, from what i have seen, on RYL you dont have to worry about that because absolutely nobody judges you about anything you say. and you dont need to feel ashamed about anything. nobody can control their feelings, and you have an absolute right to feel the way you do. if you feel uncomfortable posting something publicly you can PM me any time you want, or you could try the chat rooms or live help. seriously though, feel free to PM me or at least talk to somebody, friend or family or a counselor, because you deserve some help and you deserve to get better.
good luck
xxxooo