Feeling Lame
 

Ok, so here's the long and short of my story (hopefully more short than anything). I suppose I would be called a recovering addict. I was addicted to pills for what felt like the longest time. It's been probably 10 months since I gave it up. I realized what I was becoming and hated myself. I got to go through the hell of withdraws and all the unpleasant pain my body visited on me hoping I would go back to the pills. However, I made it. Recently the temptation has been spiking. Life has become a lot to handle, but I'm making it. I have had several people (including random drug dealers) offer me the pills that part of me misses so much. (what I miss is the feeling of being absolutely pain free...not the hell that went with it). This weekend, my body threw a tantrum. I was in constant pain. I had a migraine that was miserable, and I just had random aches, pain and lethargy. Everything was telling me to go back to the pills. Luckily my boyfriend realized what I was going through and convinced me to go out and do something nice for myself instead of hiding in a dark room torturing myself all day.
I'm just wondering if anyone else has experienced this. Sort of a quasi-withdraw feeling when the temptation arises again? I guess I'm just in need of some support from people who know how it is.

Thanks.

I leave you with: :Hugh:

You have an awesome boyfriend.

I don't have any wisdom or advice for you right now. I want to make sure you know that someone listened to and heard you and cares.

*gives you a hug*

Thanks. The boyfriend thinks I should check out NA. I'm thinking about it. :S

I'm in AA. If you want, go see if the NA web site has any information. The AA one has quizzes and pamphlets on line.
When you go to a NA meeting, they will be kind and helpful. They know that addiction is awful and will help you. If you go to a meeting or two to check it out, it doesn't mean that you are an addict either. In AA "the only requirement for membership is a desire to stop drinking" and I think it is about the same for NA.

PM me any time you want to talk.