Is it possible? *general trig just incase*
 

... to be addicted to anesthetics? I mean I really like having them and I find them addictive that I am looking for any oppertunity to have surgery. Surgery might be on the horizon again and it would be my 3rd surgery in 2 years.:notsure: Is that bad?

Sorry I know I sond crazy but I think there's something wrong and I know it's SO dangerous but I also like the attention too. I like being in pain too and the morphine I find is also addictive.

arrrgh... help!

Anything can be addictive. If it changes your mood...
I know a couple of people who love to shop. I crave books and fabric.

Thanks for your reply, I just feel like a freak and people don't understand why I want another surgery. I like the fact that you're being put to sleep and there is a risk. The drugs they give me are all so addictive and I want more *cries* I am so lame. sorry

You're not lame, just human. I'm just the opposite. It is possible to be addicted to all kinds of things. I just could not resist the heavenly hash ice cream in the store this morning.

Well I saw the surgeon and she doesn't want me to have the other surgery as it's a much bigger one than the first one that was done. But I still dont mind I have been through a lot worse and I like the attention. I like that people care about me and look after me and the risks that are involved. I can't stop thinking about how much I want another surgery =[

Perhaps it's not the meds involved that you're addicted to? Perhaps it's the attention and love that you're craving. There's a lot of people that way. Consider this though, would you really want to be cut open just to receive that attention? Perhaps volunteering in your community would get you in touch with that needed feeling?

Do you give yourself permission to take care of yourself? Do you care enough about yourself to do that? Sometimes it is very difficult to do, to learn. I've been working at learning how to take care of myself.

Have you asked your friends for their help?

You are worth it.