failed again
 

Hi,
new to this.Been trying so hard to have a good spell without self harm,promised my housemate id have a good period and we would help each other but i only managed 3 weeks before it became too much.
Went on holiday with housemate and it was so good but the whole coming back and facing reality was just too much.Also felt i let her down, so felt so angry with myself and i couldnt shake that and i failed.Im so ashamed.Feel really down,trying not too self harm again but scared im fighting a losing battle.:crying:

Hi Winnie,

Three weeks is a start and it is a good length of time without self harming when you are trying to quit. Please don't beat yourself up over this, the more you get upset about it the harder it's going to be to start building up the days. For a lot of people self harming is an addiction and addictions are really hard to beat, you will have slip ups but they are just that - you can carry on from them, just because you slip up doesn't mean you are back at square one.

Coming back from a good week and having to face reality is horrible. I'm sure a lot of people can relate to that. You haven't failed at all and I doubt your housemate will think that. I am sure she will be understanding, or does she already know?

(((Winnie))) - Take care of yourself, you aren't fighting a losing battle at all

Lotti
xx

Congrats on 3 weeks! I know how hard it is to make the first few steps. Don't worry about slipping up, we all do it. You should be proud of yourself that you were able to go that long. See, if you can do it once, you can do it twice, (and so on and so forth.) so you're really not fighting a losing battle. Honestly, it's a tough battle. It really is. We've all experienced that here.
If you're upset at yourself for self-harming, try to resist doing it again. You may feel slightly better at the release, but think of how much worse you'll feel afterwards. I doubt you let her down. From how you talked about your housemate, sounds like he/she also self-harms (if not just ignore me here), so he/she would know what its like, and what it feels like to have to self harm.

reality can be a tough thing to face. What was it, specifically, that was too much for you?

As the others have said, three weeks is amazing, you arn't going to overcome self harm over night, and you may have to seek some outside help to allow yourself to be completely 'free' from it. But in the meantime, please feel free to PM me, as well as we have a Live Assistance Support Group who are some of the best supporters around and are very much willing to help you get through the urges. Also, take a look at the Fun and Distractions Forum, you may find this to be very helpful as well.
I hope you are doing well.
xx
Nicole