sleeping alone. . . .
 

I stayed with one of my really close friends last night as it was after her birthday party and we ended up sleeping in the same bed. Now I know that isn't anything amazing, but we had a thing at the end of last year and the only reason it never got serious is because we realised that it could never work. I just found it so comforting and safe to fall asleep with arms around someone I really and truly care about that much. As before the other people left she had been really quiet but after she came over and we sat together and talked and I know she isn't open like that with anyone. I dont know I guess its really weird because before going to sleep we were sitting in the dark and talking and ended up messing around a bit, nothing that was anything really because she has a boyfriend but just being really close and holding each other alot. I don't know what I am doing know my bed feels so cold and lonely and empty.

sorry not making much sense I just miss her so much and I dont know what to do I cant sleep and I cant help but wonder what it would have been like if it cold have worked. I love her so much as a friend and she is one of very few if not the only friend who I can be really physically close to without being scared or worried.

I think you should talk to her, and really let her know how you feel.
It's not fair on you to spend your life wondering. You never know, she may feel the same way, and she at least deserves to know how you feel about her.
Sorry that this isn't much help but I just wanted you to know that I read this and I hope you're able to talk to her about this.
*squishes*

try talkin to her and tell her how u feel about thing.
she needs to know that u feel this way about her.
hope u can sort things out with her

I have spoken to her and she knows, I dont know its just that I feel so loenly so much of the time and that is the first time in ages I have gotten any sleep