I did it again...
 

I've been trying so hard to be good... I just can't do it. I don't want to cut anymore... especially since it pisses people off... I don't know... but here I sit with two brand new cuts, one on my thigh and one on my wrist... I'm just so frustrated... I hate how I feel better... Before I cut I felt like I had to wrap my arms around myself in order to keep from completely flying apart... I don't like feeling like that...

How do I make that stop without cutting?

Heya,

*massive cuddles* First - do you need medical attention with the cuts or are they taken care of? Make sure they are ok. You can cope and get over those feelings when you know what you're dealing with - what triggers you to SI. It's quite often a coping mechanism - or byproduct - of something happening in your life or something that has happened. Do you know what triggered the feelings tonight? *more massive cuddles*

xx

Cutting is a release, so no wonder you feel a little better afterwards. Next time things become intense maybe you could try distracting yourself from cutting. Even holding an ice cube in your hand until it melts completely can help.

I usually get an elastic band and ping it against my wrist, it's still SH I guess, but... no marks and it has no lasting effects medically. It's an alternative I guess.

*hugs* xx