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its been a while since my last cut and the urges are gettin unbarable!!
i was holding on for as long as i could but i decided,, who cares about
my parents && friends... i need to cut so ima do it...
finally decided to go buy some new razors.. seeing as my mother chucked
all my old stuff... and on the pack it said they couldnt be sold to people
under the age of 16... well im 17 and i thought,, thank god!!
but when i went to go pay,, the shop said that their policy is that you HAVE
to be 18 no matter what it says on the pack... by now im majourly pissed off!!
here's me thinkin i would finally get the relief ive been needing and then its
jus snatched away from me... i NEED some kinda relief i dnt care what it is
as long as i get it! my ED had gotten so bad lately aswell cuz when i dont
cut,, i eat,, when i eat,, i binge,, when i binge,, i purge... it's a vicious
circle!

:crying: HELP!.. i jus wonna curl up into a ball and never wake up!
i know there's so much i wonna do,, and i could achieve but right now i
cudnt give a flying ****!



p.s. when i got home my new RYL bracelets were here.. i already had
the trying to stop, 1 months and 3 month free bracelets but i'd ordered a
SI awareness one,, a SI recovery one,, an ED awareness one and the
black and white RYL one... they're all very nice but right now they dont
mean a thing to me... i constantly feel like i need to do that "one last
cut".. u know? but are they all gunna be that "last cit"... or so i say.. idk

'm a recovering cutter too. i've been clean for 4 days and the urges are getting to me. i'm leaving to go to washington D.C. today for my 8th grade field trip. and idk if i can make it. i'm probably gonna take a razor with me. i've been trying nt to cu sooo badly, but my parents just make things worse. please dont cut, its not the way to solve ur problems. and please eat. u need the nutrition to help ur scars heal.if u need to talk message me. i usually chech my RYL at school.

What feelings are you craving relief from?

Cutting isn't the only way of coping with difficult feelings, though I do understand how it can feel like it is the only option when things're really tough.

Let us know about what's behind your urges, and we'll do our best to help you through this, without you hurting yourself.

idk what's triggering the urges,, i honestly have no idea... but it's killing me not cutting!
it's become a way of life for so long,, and jus having to STOP completley,, and it's not even my choice..
my parents have threatened me that if i cut again im not going on holiday (America for 1 month cuz for 2 weeks i'd be on my own with my best mate who lives in Baltimore).. neway they say that if i cut i wont be allwed to go and they'll jus put me in hospital =S
so it's like i feel i have to cut,, but at the same time i CANT! cuz i wonna see my bestie soooo much! idk if i can manage it

well done for not cutting.... 4 days it better than nothing.... i know i probably sound like a hipercite (spelling? idk) but it's best if you dont do it whilst ur away,, i mean what if something happens??
and as for eating.. i do eat.. i jus throw it all back up again :ermm: oh well..

Hey there *Hugs you* Cutting wont help it will only make things worse. It could also create more problems. I really dont think you need things to get any worse than what they are now. Please dont give up you can do this. You have been doing really well and we are all incredibly proud of you. I know its very difficult but we are all here for you, you dont have to go through this alone.

Try to keep yourself distracted as much as you can the big distractions list has many different distractions you can try http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...ead.php?t=1403 you could also try doing things such as listening to music, going for a walk, posting on the fun and distractions forum or watching a movie. Please take it easy be gentle with yourself. Dont try to do to much at once as this could lead to you being stresses which is not healthy. Please keep talking to us.

Take carebest wishes Ian

I've stopped for one d ay and its already hard for me I can't stop thinking about it but you just got to find something that will take up your time so you don't

thanks for all your comments.. <3