Parents making things worse. Tough love?
 

Right now I'm really frustrated, depressed, sad and lonely but I'm coping sort of.

I'm 18 and finished school this time last year. I've been working since last october but not a particularly well paid job. I tend to sleep through most of the day but mainly cos I can't get to sleep till 6 in the morning. I'm not achieving much. I have very little money.

Anyway today my parents threw a load of crap at me. Basically I have to pay them a load of rent which is fair enough in itself but I never eat here, hardly use any electricity etc etc. And this now means that the trip I have been saving up for I can no longer afford.

I need to change I know that. But this is how my parents always do it. They suddenly throw a load of crap at me or do it in completely the wrong way. When I was younger and struggling with self harm and loads of other pressures they used to lose their temper with me and punish me and my father would often hit me if we had rows. This thing over rent etc is bringing up those old feelings of resentment and pain. I've done my best to be a good daughter. But I can't help having been ill. I can't help that I'm still recovering from all this crap. And they just expect so much more. They expect me to be the perfect daughter.

I just don't how to communicate with them. Meh.

I can totally understand where you are coming from my mother does the same. I haven't been living at home for the past two years (in-patient mental health services) and im not even home full time and now shes expecting money for me staying the weekends ive had leave during my treatment, and the way she goes about this makes me just feel fustrated and not inclined to even sit down and talk with her. The best way in my experience is to try and sit down and talk with them when things are calm and none of you are speaking in the heat of the moment.
Im sorry i haven't been much help but if you need anything pm me.

Mark