Just a question
 

Is it alright that recently though one of my friends, who Is a female, has been talking to me I dunno I've been feeling like I don't want to talk to her, like I should push her as far away from me as possible, I dunno, I've been feeling depressed lately and I don't want her to feel the same way I don't think she'll just let me say that I haven't been feeling too great lately, or that I've been feeling depressed will get her to leave me alone, I'm becoming cold and callous, not only to her, but to all those around me. I just wanna know if it's alright, cause I don't feel like putting anybody around me in any situation where they'll have to hold me up again, I don't have any support from what few friends I have.

She might be sensing your emotions and wants to talk to you about it.

I think you should let her support you if that's her intention as it's really hard to get through depression without help and friends.

Don't push her away; let her in slowly, don't talk about everything at once or she will be overwhelmed and that might cause her to feel like you do.
She'll be able to handle it, I'm sure.

Maybe, I dunno, I don't want her to feel the way I do, and well I don't want her to like me (I know its wierd for me to say that seeing how most of my depression comes from lonliness, it's just that I don't feel I could ever truly have feelings for her.)