bein silly but ..
 

does anyone else ever get scared to get close to someone who could be a potential girlfriend / boyfriend cuz like eventually theyr gunnah have to know about the self harm and its just like , i dont know wanna keep it private but

arhhh i hate it when i caint explain myself

but its like .. theres this guy and i really like him , but i dont want him to find out what a freak i am i like him thinking im 'normal' ya know ?
i dont know
i guess i just like living in my bubble
and its easier to not let people get close
cause the real me is just too much and i hate lumbering people with such a mess who is just gonna cause them more agro then happiness?
im bein pathetic i know

i feel like this alot. you're not alone. *hugs*
i just figure anyone that is worth being close to will try to understand and be supportive, just like i'd try to do with them.
take care
xxxxx

you're not being pathetic. i know what you mean.
are you scared of how they'd react if they found out?
if this person cares about you, their opinion and feelings towards you shouldn't change. if they do react badly, it's their loss.
it's better to be in a relationship where nothing is kept a secret, than having secrets and someone finding out badly.
take care xxxx

its nt about how they react or whether it changes theyr feelins. its just about not wnating him to know
i think its just me wnating to not be a self harmer :/
ahh im messed up me lol
nevermind

Yes but I have other reasons too.
I have a tendancy to become a different person in a way...and be quite manipulative.
And also...when people are close to me...I worry about letting them down so i TRY to make them hate me....
If that makes sense?

Hey,
I am the same.. i mean i feel that i just don't wanna hope for a good reaction i just don't want them to ever no because why should they come into my own like little world thing.. and just everything that could go wrong..
But well if you like them the only thing you can do is let them no because it would be so hard to make something work if you trying to hide something,

There are few options, kinda just tell and see if it can work out or try to hide it.
I hope you can work something out.
Sorry wasn't to much help.

Nick,
xx