I wonder what he would be doing now.
 

Jacob died 4 months ago today.. he was only 5 days old. I spent the day thinking about him, looking at his pictures. Some of those pictures make me smile, but some of the pictures me so incredibly sad because he looks so sick. And some of them his little eyes are still piercing through me as if he was still there.

It is so hard not to think about what Jacob would be doing now at four months old. What would he look like? For the condition that this baby was born with, he would have spent three months in the NICU, but at this point he would be home in our arms for a month now

Would he be laughing?
smiling?
Did his eyes remain blue?
Did he keep all that gorgeous brown hair on his head?

Its all so sad, and so unfair.

*cuddles*

I can semi-relate to what you're going through although it is quite a different situation. It sounds as though he was a very ill little boy and you're right it isn't fair, not at all.

I don't really have any advice but if you need someone to listen/talk to then you can pm me. Try and be gentle with yourself - let yourself cry if you need to.

Take care *cuddles*
Kirsty x

*cuddles you tight*
you know where I am Kate xxx<3 be strong

Sorry that I've only just read this.

It's hard to think what life would be like if a loved one hadn't died. Please don't spend too much time doing this, as it can be a very painful experience.

Take care, stay strong, and PM if you ever need to.