i miss my granny
 

i miss her so much. it is her birthday today. and on the 1st of may its the 3 year anniversary of her death. i miss her so much. we were so close. once she died, everything went down hill for me and i found it really hard to look after myself. it wasnt fair that she died, she was healthy and fit and it was so sudden. she had a heart attack. she shouldnt have left us, we miss her so much. she was so special, id do anything to hug her and to talk to her. i want her to see how much better i am, i want her to see where i live, talk about college with her, walk her dog with her, introduce her to my boyfriend.

the last couple of years ive been really ill , and if im honest i havent really grieved, ive been so lost in myself. it hurts so much his year. i want her so much. and im worried about my mum. i know she hurts too. and shes so thin, i know this time of year is hard for her and im worried shes not looking after herself. i dont live with her, so i cant watch her. she needs granny too.
god i miss her so much
sorry this is a really pointless post
xx

Hey there,
Sorry I got to this too late to comfort you on the day, however I think you are being really strong to let yourself grieve for your granny, its a very hard to think to accept somebody has passed on, and to accept it shows great strength. Your mum's job is to look after herself and you, you shouldn't have to be worrying and looking after her-though I know that doesn't change the situation *cuddles* Have you tried making a memory box surrounding your granny? Maybe you and your mum could do it togethe-make a box and fill it with things and pictures that remind you of your granny in a positive way?
take care
Katy
xxx