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Ive been clean from cocaine for almost four months now. It was not intentional, but its sorta been working out.

I like
* the longer sleeps
*not having psychosis-like states of mind
*having alot more money

I dont like
* gaining so much weight
* re-occuring nose bleeds (does anyone know why when you do alot of blow you stop having nosebleeds but as soon as you stop they start coming back???)
* my runny sinuses


yep.

oh yeah, one mroe dislike. ive been heavily drinking every single day and i dont get hangovers at all, just really angry when im drunk which is usally not normal for me. ive got into 4 brawls which on all 4 occasions, i was intoxicated

*moderators* delete this thread please as it is useless to post here.

I'm sorry. I'm doing my best to check here every day. I just didn't know how to reply.

Are you willing to look into Alcoholics Anonymous or Narcotics Anonymous? Or some other organization that can help you? You need to find something to fill in the empty time ans space that not drinking/using leaves behind. Getting into brawls does not sound healthy and you don't sound like you like it either. Either of those organizations will not just help you not drink and use they will help you so you won't want to any more.

Let me know how I can help.

Oh yeah, cocaine was originally developed for some special reason that includes nasal or sinus surgery. That's probably why the nosebleeds.

I simply dont have the time or energy to go to a Alcoholics Anonymous or Narcotics Anonymous and i dont think they would help me. Iwas just hoping a drink every now and then is a lot better then what i was doing before. and its obviously more socially acceptable or so it seems. Ive filled my time with school and parttime work so occupying myself isnt the hard part. filling the void is

thanks ^_^