depression
 

i dont really know where to post his but i am posting here maybe someone can help me but lately ive been feeling really down and i dont know the reason for this but im scared that im going to ruin the one thing good in my life the man i love andalready he gets upset because he cant truly understand how i feel when i just want his support i dont know a way to get rid of it for good im trying to stop si but i still feel downi cant lose him i love him too much he is all i have in this world, sometimes i just wish i was dead so i wouldnt have to hurt him or make him sad i feel he would have a better life but when i have a momnent where i feel happy and where getting on good i just couldnt do that too him. how to stop it its taking over my life again what the hell is wrong with me, i know this is not the person i am, i cant remmeber when the last time i was happy for more than a few hours, i think i should just give up on life their is no need for a sad one to make the wrest of the world sad i can never do anything right no matter how hard i try i always seem to bring things down again so really their is no point when i cant make the man i love happy or myself.
sorry this is long i just need to get it out its been inside too long now still nothing makes it feel better ,
you dont have to reply im not expecting anything
but thank you anyway.

Heyy...
I suffer depression too...
Firstly, if you were dead, your guy would definately NOT be happier OR better off. He gets sad because he loves you so much, he doesnt want to see you down. Have you tried explaining that you just need his support? Maybe he thinks theres someway he can help or that you want him to do something more...just talk to him hun. If it's meant to be it will endure the tests and I'm sure he'll stick by you because you've come this far together.
Secondly, have you thought about going to your doctor? They can prescribe anti-depressants which will help make you feel alot better. It might be trial and error at first to find the right medication but in the long run, it may benefit you. Something else I'd suggest is, while you're on medication, have a look into counselling. It might be that you have an issue from years and years before which is making or contributing to you feeling this way.
I hope you get the help you need and start to feel happier soon because you desereve to feel happy sweetheart.
Take care and my PM box is ALWAYS open if you want advice,someone to talk to or just someone to listen to you...
Look after yourself,
Alexx
*hugs*
xxx

It can help to understand your sadness and depression. Trying to push it away will probably push other people away, because its a human feeling, and we all need other human beings. It's not wrong that you're down, noone's going to punish you.
I think it's pretty important that you can get some help for what you're going through.

Heya *cuddles you*

I think it's important for you to seek some professional help if you've been feeling low for quite some time now. By going to your doctor and discussing how you've been feeling, they may refer you to a counsellor or psychologist/psychiatrist which I think would be an excellent help for you.

There are options and you won't be feeling this low forever. I'm sure your guy/bf loves you very much, else he wouldn't be with you, so please try not to worry about that too much m'dear :)

You might want to try writing things down, talking to close friends/bf/family about how you've been feeling just so that you have some support. It's really hard to tell by looking that someone is feeling low and they might not realise. Distracting yourself, writing, talking (ringing a helpline for e.g.) might be ways that'll help make things a teeny bit better for you.

Do take care.
xo