I guess I never really learnt my lesson....
 

Sometimes I astound even myself at how stupid I am. I never seem to get it through my head that nobody gives a damn about me, and they probably never will. Alright, long story short, I kind of slipped up pretty bad recently and the only person that knows is my best friend. I was under the impression that he would never leave, and he would always help me through whatever. Together forever. (his exact words, by the way) and he asks me, how im doing and if i had SI, well...i cant lie...so i admitted i had and then he said he had to go.....he hasn't talked to me since. Its like he's given up on me.
Well..I don't blame him, i always knew i was nothing more then a lost cause, so that makes me wonder, if he, my best friend, gives up on me....should I too?
I mean, the one person that i thought would always be there for me, has left me, just like the rest of them. So why should i try to fight this? Besides....would anyone even miss me?

I don't really know what to say that can help. The obvious thing is that if he has stopped talking to you because you slipped up, then he's not really worth it. But saying that probably won't help, I don't think.

Try and keep fighting though - you're not stupid at all, and slipping up is totally normal - it's no reason at all for anyone to give up on you.

Take care. xx

I appreciate you trying to help. It really means a lot to me. Thanks. =) *hugs*