lost about a month
 

been on binge for a month, not finished yet .... but realising about 20k out of poket and no idea where ive been, got to love it but, why you ****, what have i een doing... partly adiction / bi polar, bipolar coke head never a good combo lo , **** mamnn got to come down some time ... what day is it, at least im in the uk . any advise guys , normally a period of si follows want to avoid it, i have no idea if it makes sense what i have written . px

Get some help?

There's no point giving you advice if you're not going to take it,you've got to want to accept help before it works. Telling you "don't do it" is only logical to a degree.

Look at what else you could have spent your money on,what's you've maybe missed in the past x amount of time by being wasted, who've you been avoiding/ignoring and so on.

The only person who can help you,really,is you. Tell someone what's going on and ask them to keep an eye on you,or let them know that you might need them soon,so you know you can get in touch with them when you need them.

You've got to help yourself. No advice that we have will help if you don't take action. Here are a couple of suggestions for places that you can get help;

Make an appointment with a psychaitrist to work on your bi-polar stuff

Find Narcotics Anonymous in your area and check it out.

See if there is Gamblers Anonymous in your area.