Just so you know..................
 

......Ive been discharged.

Thats all I have to say really.

Im not in a good place......I did bad last night..od'd and harmed.

I am getting worse and worse....
I feel like a bouncy ball on a hill....ive started on an awful bouncy journey and im bouncing and rolling uncontrollably and just cant stop.

.........Thing is, no one can catch me either
I will stop when I die.
That is my only way now
Please dont tell me it isnt.
My hope was in the Hospital.
Im out and nothing has changed.
Cant carry on this way anymore.

xxxx

Actually........
 

..........I did have more to say!!

I am one fvcked up b!tch who shouldnt have been released from hospital.
She knows exactly what she's going to end up doing, and noone gives a bloody damn in this world!!

Never mind though hey?
I now have access to all the blades I need, all the pills I need.
The only thing I havent got is drink as my kind husband tipped it all away when he caught me burning........ooooh yes....I have that too.

Shes getting excited now at the thought!! hehe!!

I know I wont be allowed to get away with not doing anything.
I know what she's like.......she's the other me.....

Anyway..........thats that!!

They could only have released you if they thought you would be alright. You will be alright...it might take a bit but you will get better. I do enjoy your bouncy ball analogy though....there does have to be a bottom to your hill eventually ....emotions cannot run high or low forever. Stay as safe as possible.

love you too.
xx

*HUGS*

why did they release you if you had gotten worse? were you honest with these people? did you tell them that once you left you'd be unsafe, in harm's way? please Rowie, call them up and tell them. you need to be safe, if you can't do it and your hubby can't do it, then leave it to the experts, but they can only help if you are 100% honest. mand x