confused :-/ *help*
 

for some reason lately ive been more depressed than i usually am ive been thinking about cutting constantly and its not helping me what so ever than im now way over stressed by starting a new job thats 40+ hours a week out in the sun its just idk to much im tired constantly i was even before i started this job i literally want to just lay in bed all day or curl up in a ball i jsut dont know what to do anymore also im getting the urge to start oding again which is just way to tempting for me right now like i have the bottle sitting next to me ugh idk what to do. please help

im late seeing this and im not in the best of places.
BUT...i can tell you, the first thing to do is to remove the bottle of pills sitting next to you.
put them out of sight.
give them to someone to keep...anything to keep you from taking them.
i figure the new job is a huge stressor....any type of change usually is.
so your feelings of wanting to cut arent really unusual.....try not to analyze it so much.
just go with the flow and if you feel bad....take it for what it is....you just feel bad.
but you WILL feel better again.
much love.
xx