Can't Stop
 

I can\t stop cutting myself.
All day I keep stopping and coming back to it.

It just tried to go to bed but I got up because I need to cut more.

I'm now cutting over cuts made earlier today.
It' just not enough.



I'm starting to scare myself.




i'm sorry for wasting your time.

You aren't wasting time, but hun you need to distract yourself from all this cutting, maybe check out the Fun & Distractions board? I'm sorry you're going through such a hard time right now. Is there anything that you could do to stop cutting at least for a while? PM me if you want to talk. xx laura

i've tired so many things - having a bath, reading, painting, i went for a walk.

oh i'm scared, there's blood everywhere - on the floor, on everything,

oh i don't know what to do

Did anything happen to cause this just now? Looking at your feelings and talking about them some can help.

How are you doing this morning? If you're still feeling unsafe and scared then it might be a good idea to get to see a dr or visit a and e.

i'm about to have a shower.
I still want to cut, which is weird.

but i have work this evening and explaining my arms is going to be hard enough as it is.

And yes something did happen - i got dumped by my long term boyfriend of 2 years and it's weird.

urgh i hate this urge.

I would think then that you are going through some grief, anger and sadness right now, and are feeling pretty raw. So, in a way, its not so weird that you're feeling out of sorts. You are dealing with a loss, and its probably somewhat of a shock, too.

Take good care of you.