What do I say?
 

Hey guys,

Ok I'm finally back to writing threads of substance. sorry for my insane ramblings the past week, It was good to let things out

This past weekend something bad happened, and a close friend of mine was away. He comes back today and will be online in about 5 minutes and I'm scared. He found out something happened and first thing he will do after letting me know how the weekend went will be to ask what happened. I don't know how to tell him and put it in words, I don't even want to think about it again. But if I don't tell him he will worry himself sick and say that I'm pulling away from him, which I'm not, I'm just... I'm scared! I'm scared of everything.

What do I do..

Emily

You could tel him you dont feel ready to talk about it yet, sorry if thats not much use, but thats what i'd do if i were u *hugs*

i talked about it. now i know why he stopped trying to help me... she scared him away. damnit!! he was able to really bring me out while she was around, i trusted him so much. even josh couldnt bring me out like he could. is this your idea of protecting me? by getting someone i trusted to hurt me without even meaning to? you didnt like him because he didnt like you, that was obvious the day he tried to seperate us. but you always had my best intrests in mind didnt you? well this is in my best intrest, to have him try and help me... *sigh* its too late now, i jsut wish id known. yeah i was gonna apologise for the way ive potrayed you but now im pissed off! look what youve done! you set me up to fail, one of the hard things in all this was that he stopped helping me, you knew that! you knew all of this! i hate you! yes, i said it, i hate you!

:crying:

/end of rant to someone none of you will meet again