tick tick tick....boom!
 

Wow it feels good to be back on RYL, for the longest time i couldn't even open it then i come in to find out it has changed but I guess change is good. so i'm told so will go with that thought for now..........Change is *good* (i'm happy to be back)

Feeling very disconnected today.

I want to cry.....

I want to cut............

I need to get thoughts out of my head just no words to put to them.....

I did cry...........

I did cut..........

I feel defeated.....

am i ok (NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) sorry for the yelling needed to yell that out..........

I am a ticking time-bomb waiting to go off just don't know when or how but it's going to go off...........

trying to be very careful about how this sounds - sometimes it is very cathartic to let yourself explode. Sometimes it is the fear of how people will respond when we blow that adds to our difficulties. I'm fortunate to have friends who I know will be understand if and when I explode. I hope you can with your friends