No wonder i can't feel anything im about to lose everything
 

* my fiancee is a liar ( and i really thought i could trust him)
* my mom is crazy and addictied to medication ( but ive never known anything else)
* my best freind has ditched me for another guy (but she has "daddy issues")
*i just stopped using meth ( but my life is still hell)
* i have writers block ( but i never try to get published anyway)
* im a slut ( ive slept with several of my friends boyfriends,before i was with my fiancee)
* im a horrible person ( for all the above reasons)
* im a fat slob ( i can't stop feeding my face)
* i want to slit my wrists ( i cant find a razor)
* i cant feel anything ( i am numb)

1. you found that out before you had to pay for a wedding and the divorce following
2. at least it's her who's crazy, not you
3. think about the friends you have, not the only one who doesn't care
4. GOOD! That IS positive. And yes, it's hell, but it's one thing you've fixed!
5. writer's block happens to everyone. Try stream of consciousness writing. And post your stuff in the creative corner or on fictionpress.com
6. obviously, your friends boyfriends don't have the fidelity streak. At least you weren't with your fiancee
7. having issues hardly makes anyone a horrible person
8. comfort eating can become a problem... have more liquids (fills your stomach) and exercise (gives you endorphins and muscle pains, what more could you want)

See, things can be turned around quite easily.

Take care *hugs* hurting yourself will only make things worse.

I know what it's like to find out someone you love is lying to you. It's hard but it will get easier to deal with over time. As caffeine_queen said, things can be turned around quite easily. If you ever need to talk, I'm here for you. xx Laura

these things will seem bad now, and may even feel like the end of the world, but theyll change, first theyll become manageable and then they wont be a n issue at all. chin up hun, dont let this bring you down!
:)
katy
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