i learned something
 

i was sober from blow for a good two months with the intention of staying sober but i relapsed last week and i remember sitting there and thinking how perfect it was, almost like the first time i did it and couldnt figure out what i liked so mcuh abotu it. even now i couldnt tell. but i learned that i liked it better once or twice on a rare occasion then in excess the way i was doing it before...maybe/hopefulyl i can keep the rare occasion thing going...

remember, the best line you'l ever have is the next one, true addict spk. i try to do a similar thing and have a mad blow out occasionaly but as im sure your familiar with these blow out sessions can sometimes end up days long and ive ended up in forieng countries not remembering why the hell i wanted to go there, so becareful try and plan it set some guidelines, dont get more than you need, and enjoy it how it was supposed to be enjoyed, like everything, in moderation. good luck cc let me know how you get on.

yeah - i don't know.
i don't know a single person who can do coke recreationally, really.

i know, i'm a ****ing cokehead. and it's been a year since i got off it - and i know that i can't go near it because i won't stop. being 8686787 places at once is so unappealing to me now, though.