I want
 

to die.
So I'm going to bed.
In the hope that when I wake up in the morning, this will all be over.
How many more days until it's actually over? Or is this something I'm going to have to live with for the rest of my life? Haha, I know it is. But like, tell me it gets easier? Tell me that seeing people I don't want to will get easier? Lie to me, whatever, I don't care. Just tell me it will stop before I have to make it stop.

Just make it stop.
Please.

Seeing people you don't want to see will get easier. Doing things you don't want to do will get easier. You don't have to do it all at once, just one bit at a time.

Sometimes going to bed really helps.

How're you doing today, Chels?

sweety, i hope you stayed safe last night, your always welcome to text me when you feel bad. even if its just like using a code word like pie or something so i know your not good and i'll text you back.

it does get easier, and thats not a lie at all but you dont have to do it all on your own.

xxx

I love you.
see me next week?

i hope you feel better chelsea