so worthless
 

why do i bother
noone ****ing cares i just want to die.
i want to si bad
i want to ****ing scream.
i was just going to give up but here i am posting here instead.
the thing is i not allowed to give up
my little boy is asleep in bed if i go he will have noone.i dont want him to see my arms all messed up
i have to be strong
i dont know what to do i really hate myself right now

even whenit seems there is noone who cares there always somone that does. your son cares about you he may not be able to tell you yet but he does care. i dont know what else to say i know your having a hard time right now but maybe if you keep thinking about your son it will help you thruogh it.

No wisdom or advice. I'll keep you and your son and your nephew in my prayers.
*hugs you*

I agree with snoopdragon. Just keep remembering that you need to stay strong so that you can be there for your son. And he will be there for you too, even if he can't understand what you're going through. I hope you feel better soon.

thankyou
think i heading for relapse going to see psychitrist tomorow
i not feeling any better

i WANT TO DIE

Hello. I'm sorry i have nothing useful to offer. I just want you to know i'm here if you need me. Please hold on, for your little boy. Like you said he needs you.

That's really good that you're going to see a psychiatrist. I hope he/she can help you.

Hun, I know how hard things can often seem, but you can get through this, I believe you can, keep fighting, for your son, you have to keep fighting.
Thats really great that youre going to see a psychiatrist, I hope it goes ok.
Im here if you want to talk,
Love Lora xx

i did it! Saw psychitrist and told her everything!
not sure how i am supose to feel.
part of me wishes i hadnt told.
she is going to see me again in 4wks.
i am all mixed up sorry
thanks for your support

Well done for telling your pdoc.