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icant stop thinking about killing myself im so sick of everthing and i have abottle of sleeping pills that would be so easy to take i hate these thoughts i hate myself i am so pathetic i cant fight this anymore i know im going to dosomthing tomyself and im scared why cant i stop having these feelings and these thoughts i keep having thoughts about people in my life being killed and it all seems so real but i know its not i want this all to stop i know i have to hurt myself to feel better it has been almost 2 months so iknow it will be a very deep cut maybe i should just cut my wrtst and get it over with or just take the pills and never wake up i dont know what to do anymore i cant live with these feelings

I don't know what to say to make you feel better. Just believe that we've all been there and you know it will pass with time. If its been two months then you're doing so well.
*offers hand to hold on to*
Pam xx

I understand. Last summer I figured out how to do it and I can't let go of that even though i'm enjoying life more now.

*offers hand on the other side*
*looks to see who else will reply so we can do a cinnamon roll hug with snoopdragon in the middle*

im trying so hard not to give in but i cant think of a reson not to im hiding in my room away from the pills and where thehes nothing sharp enough to do any real damage but its not helping me nothing helps anymore why wont this stop i need to do something