Tempted. Oh so tempted.
 

Oh so very triggered. I wrote a thread in Serious hoping it would help (I was going to email samaritans but then thought I'd come to you guys as I like you better), but now I just feel so much worse. I feel so hideous, ugly horrendous, disgusted with myself.

I want to lose myself. Anyway I can. Drink, hurting myself, drugs (recreational or diet pills/laxatives). I want to self destruct. There are things stopping me. Mainly Paul, and my lizards, and the few friends I have. Oh and the sheer terror that people will think I'm stupid (more so than usual).

I hate myself. Really Really hate myself.

Please guys, I know I'm pants at being around here at the moment but perhaps those who remember me, or a kind stranger could give me a bit of help?

I'm falling very fast :sad:

I replied to your post in Serious.

*reaches out a hand for you to hold onto*

I've seen thank you lovely :) *clings* xx

Hi, I don't know too many people cos I'm fairly new. I too have been on a bit of a bender of booze and SI which has taken up most of this year so far. But all I can say is hang on in there, it will get easier with time and those feelings will pass. Stay safe x
*Hugs*

**hugs you all**
Thank you so much for the support, it's really appreciated xxxx

*reaches out a hand to catch you*
No wisdom or advice but always *hugs*

Im sorry that you dont like yourself at the moment. Hopefully this feeling will go, if not let us hold your hand through this difficult time.
Sending you good vibes

Here if you need me

Jade xxx