stressed
 

i`ve been cutting so much lately.
and i think the reason is because im soooo freaking stressed.

its so sososo hard living in this culture i just want to scream sometimes (like now for instance) im so full of frustration and stress and its all turning to anger.
but i cant show it. i cant let it show. i have no one i can talk to here and i cant tell my family back home because i dont want them to worry and my friends back home just keep shrugging me off.
god i just want to cry and scream and cut and ****ing slap the next person who messes with me.

im so close to loosing it i can feel it. im hanging on by my finger tips.
i dont know what to do. i cant keep it in. i cant keep cutting everyday.
i cant let it out. i cant ****ing do anything.





i wanna go home i just wanna go home. but i cant and i cant tell anyone.
and i still have five months to go.
can i hang on that long?
any tips on how to cut down the stress? how to deal with it in a healthy non explosive way?

Stress can often trigger me to want to self harm as well.

My advice is to do something to try and distract yourself.

I believe physical exercise is supposed to relieve stress.

For example I like taking my dog for a walk and that usually calms me down.


So try going for a run or start playing sport or if you have a dog take it for a walk. I dunno but I hope you feel better soon.

When i moved to school for the first time, I was in a different city, and i was rather dumb and had a gf. When we broke up from distance, my family by this point left accross the country, I fell into a deep pit and I was just broken that I couldn't go home. No one was there either and so much more bull crap happened ontop of that, I resorted to cutting really bad a few times.
When i had only 3 months left before I could leave, I started to look at life like a really hard game.. You're this close to getting to the end 6 months is not that long. I suggest playing video games alone if everyones pissing you off (diablo 2 is really good for taking out stress).

Just mark down the days, and keep going, and don't give up! It's rough I know but you can make it! and when you're done and years from now you will be like "nothing can stop me now. I made it through that BS!"

Your stronger then you know, and if you want someone to just talk to, feel free to PM me and i'll give you my msn :)

Don't give up!