Struggling
 

I stopped selfharming a month ago but I'm starting to miss it. I know that must sound odd but I do. I get so angry for no reason, I can be sat watching a movie one minute and the next I'm ready to deck someone or hit something or normally its cut. I want to cut so badly but I dont want to get caught again. I've already got people watching me and its driving me mad. I dont know if i can make another month without cutting.

You've done really well with your one month hun, and I know exactly how you feel.

I'm sorry to hear you have these urges, just try to distract yourself? Read a book, listen to some happy music?

Take care xx -hugs-

do you know why you keep getting so angry out of nowhere? can you talk to anyone about it? maybe if you write about it that might help....i'm here anytime

you have already done so well going a month! congrats on that!
take each urge as it comes and try deal with it.
i know its easier said but u can distract yourself from this.
think of the achievment you will make.
how proud u will be when u realise another month has past and u havnt cut again.
please try stay calm and chat away here about why u might be feeling this way.
take care xx

*hugs*

It's not something weird to miss SI everyone misses it as it the way to cope from stress and emotions you can't face .
I've been there - just making excuses for myself to cut , making fights to depress myself so i can find an excuse to cut ...

Please hun keep fighting 1 month is a GREAT achievement you can make them 2 !

x

I started cutting and now I dont want to stop I just want to go deeper and deeper. I dont know wot to do

please try and stop it...deeper is not safe...
do your cuts need medical attention?
please seek attention from someone if it is what you need.
why did u feel the need to cut just now? xx

So much is goin on and I dont know where to start. I give up

please do not give up petal/.
im concerned bout u and im gonna stay here and keep talking to you.
how r ur cuts doing?
xx

there ok. sort of wish they weren't tho

please dont wish things like that.
i know u r having a hard time at the minute and im defo gonna be here for you to talk to,.,.,along with marie.
you deserve so much more and i wish you would see jsut how wonderful you are. u dont need to do this to yourself. xx

I wish I could believe that. But atm the only thing I cna believe is that Im a failure in everything. I haven't felt like this in a long time. I'm angry constantly tho no-one can tell. All I think about is cutting and I cant make it stop, and now I cant stop myself from doing it

you can stop urself...
be strong hun,
u can dotis

I dont know if i want to stop

I cut again this morning and still it just doenst seem deep enough. Im so confused nothing is making sense

u reli need to go tlk to your doctor.
u seem in a reali bad place now.
i hope ur cuts arent bad hun...please try resist the urge of cutting more..xx

Its all i can think about tho.

i know. its hard to break the train of though.
you need to distract yourself somehow.
is there no way at all you will talk to your doctor?x

I've been before they dont do anything. I saw a counsellor yesterday and she doesnt do anything just tells me to write on some sheet how I feel.

go back to the doctor...tell them that things arent getting any better.
its reali **** how they treat ppl at times.
try think of all the reasons you shouldnt cut and focus on them x