I dont no what to do
 

my life is just so rubish right now
i am in the middel of my exams and im so stressed about that
i dont have a proper relationship with my dad we dont talk we just argue and it gets realy nasty last week he told me he f**in hates me and he doesnt give a c**p about me any more and the one person who gives a s**t about me im braking her heart and he got my mom and she was crying i was curled up in my bed he pulled me off and started hitting me then he wacked my head of the door andkcked me out the house i carnt leve for good yet because i am only 15.
i dont no what to do i hate comeing home because all that goes on is arguments. my mom always tried to stick up for me but shes even horrable to me now.
I no my mom loves me tho i hate to think im hurting her, she just found out iv been self harming i feel so guilite and horrable :(
i would do anything to be anyone else but myself i hate my life so much.
:(

I think you need to talk to someone outside your family. I know it seems impossible and that the solutions offered are really bad for you and your family because you'd probably end up in foster care but if the situation is serious like that, it's important. You could have had serious head injury.
As for the self-harming, you are hurting your mother but if you have to resort to it to cope with the things in your life, it means something is wrong and that it needs to change. It might have to do with all the arguments.
This is a very complicated situation to deal with but I can only advise you to please talk to someone. A teacher or a school counsellor would be a good start. If you feel you can't speak directly to them, writing a letter is an excellent alternative as it permits you to work on it to say exactly what needs to be said.
Whatever you do, don't stay silent.
I also advise you to look into the abuse forum. You probably can get better help there than I can give you.
Take care

This has to stop before it becomes more serious. You and your Mum are in danger from your Dad's violent behaviour-you're only 15. You shouldn't have to choose whether to protect your Mum or yourself. Can't you call social services? Please-it really would be the best thing. Although I'm pretty certain there will be arguements through your household-but know it's for the best.

If you can't do that-but feel unsafe at home, could you live at a friend's house? Or a relative's? If not there's usually hostels for people escaping physical abuse.

Exams can be repeated-resit. It doesn't matter right now-what matters is you being safe.

Hope you're okay

Robyn-Gosh that was a stupid reply