Ooh. Yet again the lovelife has come back to haunt me. *Pathetic*
 

I've got three different guys on my mind.
I dream about all three of them and it's insane.
I hate myself because they're all friendsish and I'm messing it all up.
But anyway...
The first guy: User but I'm still not properly over him.
The second guy: My ex...more about this later.
Third guy: Is lovely and reeeally likes me. But I don't know if I like him.

So what is currently happening is that I'm "going out" with number 3.
And I do really like him...but I'm not over either of the other 2...especially not my ex.

Number 1 is getting together with one of my friends and if he hurts her I will tear off his balls. I'm kinda jealous...but he's a ****. And I don't think he'll actually do anything offical coz he "doesn't do relationships".

Number 2 is the one that is screwing me up right now. He is like, the love of my life. We were together for a really long time and yeah...you've heard it all before. He dumped me, had sex with me for the next 6 weeks, went away for a week then got back together with the girl he went out with before me. Thing is I think she might be the love of his life, not me. He cheated on her with me but it wasn't like deliberate...That sounds so dumb... but we were hanging out and I guess we're just so used to it and so comfortable with eachother, stuff just happens. We haven't seen eachother for over a week which is a really big deal for us. I called him Sunday and we sort of had an argument and I kinda drew the conclusion (wrongly or rightly) that he doesn't want to be around me because he doesn't want to screw up what he's got with her. But then today, after not talking since Sunday, we had the following conversation...

He says:... daisy i dnt wanna tlk to u like this , i been wanting to see *u every day this weeke but i et caught up n stuff

She says: what do you mean?
She says: i miss you so much.

He says: pls i need to see your face , im soooo ****ing sorry about sunday i didnt meen to just , i need to see you , i had *u running through my head all week and *i cant getyou aout *i have to see *u xxxxxxxxxx i gtg now

She says: i'm sorry. you're like my best mate...and it's like when i didn't talk to rach for ages...it really hurt.

He says: its nothing bad
He says: well yer *it is kinda
He says: but its not cos i hate you or some thing stupid
He says: i rlly have to go , daisy i still love you , xxxxxxxxxxxxxx sweet dreams *xxx n i might see *u afters *school tomro if *ur at ur house , but *dnt *be waiting for me pls

I mean maybe i completely misinterpretated that when I read it.
Coz to me it sounded like...I dunno.
But this is a really bad time.
I was just moving on and now he's back.
I can't say I don't think about him everyday...
I'm still completely heartbroken and madly in love with him.
The other guys hardly even compare at all.
But I can't just drop a new relationship for an old one, that's like taking a step backwards.

HELP PLEASE!!!!!
;_;
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

P.s sorry it's long and probably very trivial to most of you.

I think you should try and move on from #2. It seems like he hurt you before and he may end up hurting you again. That's not cool. #3 sounds like the right choice for now, but if you don't like him, then theres not really a point. Or you can just not go for any of them and be single and look for someone else.
But only you can really decide.
Let me know if you want to talk.

I cant think of anything very helpful to say tbh but....
You dont deserve to be treated badly and if anyone treats you badly tell me and i'll bite their balls off :P Hehe sorry. dont mind me *giggles*

If your not sure about number 3 do you want to lead him on and think theres more to it than there really is?

Number one well.... F**k him...using people is sooooo uncoool!

And Number 2....well... ex's are always an rocky path but be careful yeah? I dont wanna see you get hurt, even if you two are best friends. Dont forget he has a girlfriend and think how you'd feel if he'd of cheated on you? Take stuff slow and dont do something you'll regret.

I hope this helped (doubt it but meh....) Pm me any time if you want yeah?

Love Kitty x