What if they don't believe me?
 

I really need some advice/reassurance here...I've reached the stage where I need to tell someone about my SIing, because they think I'm a stirrer, a liar and basic trouble maker, because of what an ex-friend (who is an attention grabbing two facedlow life who makes out his life is worse than it is, hence people turned on me when I spoke out against him) has fabricated about me, to try and push me out of a circle of friends, whom I don't want to lose. I'm still okay with most of them, but nothing like we were. The fact this ex friend did this started me cutting again and I'd been free for over two years and it's knocked me down so low and I just want to stop again.

I feel the need to tell my friend about my SIing, because I want them to know what I'm really feeling and why I sometimes act strange and can be moody. I'm not quite sure what they're curently thinking about why I act 'odd' but I want to get it off my chest to make myself feel better. But because of the crap that's been said about me I'm so worried they'll not believe me.

Should I just tell her and if she thinks I'm a liar cut my losses and forget about these people? It's very hard so any advice on how to start the conversation or if even to just break off and forget all this and get better. Any advice people can offer would be loved.

Oh no, the person I want to tell never spread anything about me. She was just inclined to believe my ex friend at the time due to his pity me rountine. Which, is true is quite sad, but I've heard three different versions of it now, so it's beginnning to get a little irritating.

Generally the person I want to confide in is very supportive, but I just can't be one hundred percent she'd believe me due to the rumours.

Could you maybe first ask if she believes the rumors? Given that she's a close enough friend that you'd trust her with this, she probably knows you well enough to know the rumors aren't true, but it probably wouldn't hurt to ask, either, and then you won't have to worry about it...