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Some of you know I'm in hospital. It's been almost 3 months. I'm not ill so how can I get better?

Why do you think you're in hospital if you're not unwell? It's sometimes hard to see when we are unwell. What are the staff saying?

That I need to stop listening to the voices.

What's your view on listening to the voices? I know before they have told you to do very risky things and I think it's important to look after yourself rather than doing what they say.

Would you want someone else to do the kind of thing the voices tell you to do?

If they were special like me lr. I would get them to get their wings first though.

I'm worried about an implant because someone is inserting and stealing my thoughts. At the weekend I cut my head and hands to see.

wonder if it might help to reframe the way you are looking at it. it doesnt seem to be helping to think of being ill vs being well. because that seems to kind of be the constant issue in wording and logic where you get tripped up.


but is there any way to think of it as another way. like as an example. thinking about, what do i want? if my goal is to not be in hospital against my wishes, what do i need to do? what things do i have control over that would change my circumstances? what things do staff and drs need from me in order to be discharged? how can i make those things occur, regardless of my view of illness or wellness?


like dont get us wrong. get on some level they are looking for acknowledgement from you of you being ill and all that. but if it helps you in your head to think about it differently, that might be worth a try. then you can just see the acknowledging what is occurring as illness as something that might be important to them but does not hold value or belief to you.


this isnt to say fake things or lie necessarily. just that maybe if illness is not a framework of thinking about your voices or struggles that works for you, maybe there is a different framework that might work better that could be worth exploring.

I don't really understand.

if thinking about yourself or your experiences in terms of being ill vs being well is unhelpful (which from the sound of it, it is), maybe there is a different way of thinking about things that might work better?

I think I did that last year and it got me out of hospital but 2 months later I was back for the same thing. I need something different.

I just had ward rounds. There wasn't anyone I knew in the room, just my mum on the phone. It felt like an inquisition. I don't know what the plan is, the psych was going to talk to my mum after i left.

I'm sorry your ward round felt like people weren't really putting you first. Will your Mum talk to you about what was said when you left?

Yes. The psychiatrist (a locum) wants to rediagnose me with EUPD. Even though I still don't have mood swings, erratic behaviours (other than SH) etc

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I just spoke to my main nurse and she is baffled. She doesn't think i have EUPD and she doesn't think a locum can rediagnose after one meeting. She's going to check the notes from the ward rounds.

Hopefully your main nurse is helpful and can give you some clarity?

Surely they should speak to your community psychiatrist about that?

I haven't had a chance to speak to my nurse today but I will try tomorrow. I don't think psychiatrists ever consult with each other!

Have you had a chance to speak to your nurse yet? I know what you mean about psychiatrists. My community psychiatrist and the ward psychiatrist can't agree on one of my diagnoses so it's like I have different diagnoses in the community and when I'm in hospital. I hope you can get some clarity and understanding.

I checked with my nurse and she said there's nothing in my notes about any diagnosis change.

Did she say if it's still being discussed or if they've decided against it or what?

All she could say was there's nothing in the notes. I'll have to ask my actual consultant (hopefully next week) but I'm not sure I want to put ideas in his head!