Help: final report!
 

O.k 'm writing a report on SI so I want some input...

What made you start?
Why does it feel so "addicting"?


I know my answers so whats yours???

Thanks for the help!

I cant remember the specific event that made me SI for the first time but I do remember being really depressed at the time. I think it was because things just build up and I just did it out of reaction almost (grew up in a verbally/emotionally abusive household). I didnt know why, didnt know what I expect or wanted to get out of it, i just did it then realized after. I guess I was in some kind of altered state of mind at the time. Guess thats not really the kind of answer you were looking for though.

As for why its addicting... I think its the calming feeling I get afterwards thats addictive. Also since it can give a feeling of relief whether its from guilt, self punishment.. ect.

I think the time I started SI'ing, I was having problems with some people anyway, and it got to the point where I just couldn't take it anymore so I looked towards SI as a sense of release and just generally to calm me down.

Like Smile said, I was in a different state of mind at the time.

And also, with what Smile said about the whole addicting thing. Agreed.