Torturing mind
 

It is pouring on my world. The mind games. The thoughts. The ideas of self infliction. I wrote last night only for it to sign me out and lose it again. It has been a month since intentional hurting (not counting the crafty burns -some maybe more intentional than others.-making my glass boxes)
I am off my6 rocker right now. No communication with anyone. No comuunication besides work and my kids and my husband. I have lost everything and everyone. NO Communication..
If it wasn’t for my daughter sitting next to me in the car…I would have found my accident.
Its deeply embedded in my mind. I needed someone to talk to last night. Leave it up to the internet to mess with my mind.
Lost alone hurt suicidal with no communication.
Self inflicted last night, hurting and ashamed desiring more today.
Rambling on, I feel alone,
Rain

im really sorry Rain.
i dont have anything to offer. im quite useless at the moment.
just wanted to leave some *snuggles*
and send my love.
please try to stay as safe as you can.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

*sits with you*

*hugs you* *checks to make sure your seat belt is fastened"
Being lonely and unable to communicate is the worst feeling i know

*hugs you tightly*
xxxxx

Rainmaker: I'm so sorry you coudn't get on last night. I hope today is better for you. I'm sad you had to si but I understand it well. Sometimes it seems like its the only answer. Hope you can find more answers today.

*pets your hair and says "it's going to be okay"*
I wish I could help more.
xoxoxo

*snuggles you*
Oh hunni, I'm sorry...

Please take care

Much love and many hugs

Alyssa

Dear FRainy, my fellow frog-hunter, i have let you downn girl...very much. I am sorry. I have been busy falling apart myslef atm...
but its no excuse to disappear and not at least try to help...im sorry my friend
Pls get in touch okay?
*throws a frog at you*

(*AND...stick a bubble-gum-chewing one in your hair*)
:o)
romp

I am still roughing it. I am having "accidents" with sharp or hot things every day. I am losing my mind. INo take that back I have lost my mind.

Romp,
I know it is hard times. Takes the discusting and horrid thoughts and hides them away.

Love you punk-a-poo
Rain

*tries to make it with out visitng the you know who*
Repeats to self* I am stronger than I think I am*

*squidges tightly and doesn't let go*

So sorry to hear your not doing very well at the moment. I wish I could take it away from you but this is something you have to get through. As I've said before do it for you, your husband and your children. Kids need their mothers. Be strong hun.
x