Very Triggered.....
 

you know what?????

im just going to say it.....maybe i should just stay away from here for a while.

or stay away from the threads that are labeled *adult*
i just think some of them are completely inappropriate and frankly make me nauseous.

i want to go and cut off every man's "anatomy".
i want to hack off my own just thinking about it.
im just way triggered and probably should have known better.

i just really dont think some of the threads in general are appropriate for a so-called support site.

i completely agree with having fun but my god do we not have enough threads about sex and everything related to it??????

sorry....im just really triggered.

Hey, Rachel.

I understand. There are threads I stay away from because of my past. I am triggered by things others wouldn't find triggering, and what others find triggering doesn't often trigger me. We're all different.

I'm here if you need support.

thank you Katie.

im just really really upset.
ive been having awful nightmares of the past and im completely exhausted all the time.

and tuesday im having the surgery to have the tumor removed from my breast....which is really making me anxious. i just want it all over with.

the 4 month anniversary of my father's death is very soon.

the holidays are always a rough time for me because i miss Keith so much. i will only be seeing him for 2 days this year for Christmas.

its my own fault for opening the threads anyway.....but my curiosity seems to get the better of me.

i just hate me right now.
im so sorry. i just want to cry and cry and cry.....but my body cant shed one tear.

That sounds like an awful lot all at once. ((hugs you gently))

I know what you mean about curiousity. Sometimes it needs to be treated firmly, like a curious child.

I don't hate you.

And I understand what it is like to have so many tears inside yet not be able to cry...

If you're feeling triggered, then dont go into the threads that are marked 'TRIGERING', or 'ADULT', I'm sorry but it's common sence and quite frankly you have offended me. This is a mental health/self injury support site (whatever you wanna call it) and if people are feeling low or down about something or need support then they are entitled to post.

Yeah I can understand you're going through a pretty shitty time of it but don't take it out on other people. You've had your say and I've had mine, thank you!

Take your own advice and stay away from anything labeled adult

who, me?

Lyssie I think you have misunderstood what she is finding hard. It is not the support posts like yours, in no way is she suggesting that those should stop, that I can promise you ok?
Its the 'humorous' adult posts that she finds triggering and sometimes inappropriate, the ones on Veterans General Board which im sure that we can all sometimes relate to, I personally find that type of humour hard to understand and so it causes a problem for me. I hope you feel less offended now, Rachel was in no way suggesting that adult topics be removed from the support boards.

^ I agree, Aimee. You said what I wanted to say but I couldn't find the words.

Some of that stuff in general is crude. Silly me, i offered a link to one of my favorite web sites to someone who was bored.

I so understand about wanting to cut off anatomy. I'd like to do it too. I'd like to break my mother's hands unto a mess. (and at that i'm trying to calm down my description.)

I'm finally getting enough sleep that i'm able to have nightmares so my sub-conscious can process some of my junk.

I hope that my thread about ugly didn't make you feel bad?

(I don't want to offend your spiritual beliefs.) You've been in my prayers this past week and i will continue as you go into surgery. How long will you be in hospital afterwards?

Major sympathy and empathy to you.

Offering a big gentle and cherishing bear hug.
Love, Susan

*wishes i could cry*
i had no intentions of offending anyone.
i try so hard to support everyone here.
i was only saying that some of the threads in general that are supposed to be funny usually turn into something sexual. i would like to have fun here too.
but i just cant when the threads go completely nasty to me.
im sorry to whomever else i may have offended.
im sorry for having my own feelings.
im sorry for wishing i never posted this thread.
im sorry that im so upset over something so stupid.
im sorry for being me.

Susan...thank you for your prayers, that means so much to me.
its only supposed to be an outpatient surgery just to remove the lump and i should be able to go home the same day with an estimated 2 week recovery. im just really stressed about what the biopsy results will show as i have a history of breast cancer in my family.

i wont be back here for a while.
i will not be attacked when i clearly stated what my trouble was.
i will stay in touch with my friends on msn.
and when i feel better...i will stop in to update here.
until then....my msn is in my profile.

love to all.
xxxxxxxxxx

Oh hun, I hope you get my message, I wish I could rewind time.
I will be wishing and praying for you.
Please don't leave over this.
Lovelove xx

Rach i hope you are reading - even if only as a guest. I love you and i just wish I could turn back time and erase your history. I wish i could make it all better. maybe stay away from here for a week or so if it is triggering you, i'll be about on msn as much as possible. love you, mand x

I'm sorry if I offended. When I said that i'd recommended my favorite web site to someone who said they were bored, it is a site with great maps and lists of ghost towns.

I'll look for that msn thing. I think i want to talk to you and get your advice when you're feeling better, on some of the issues we have in common.
More prayers and even more on Tuesday.

Love, Susan

Susan please don't worry, you have offended no one.
No one has done anything wrong, no ones made any mistakes or anything like that, just a couple of misunderstandings.

Some people are triggered by things others are not. Thats the way things are. If you can't be somewhat sympathetic to that, then thats kinda sad.

As possibly one of the main offenders of smut, I am really sorry if I have upset you. It is FAR from my intention to upset people, rather, try to bring some smiles out of often sad faces.

Having said that, I can understand how at times it can be all too much. Its all well and good to say "well just stay away then" but life isnt that black and white.

If ever you want to talk, my PM box IS always open. I'm more then happy to listen.

Just please take care of yourself.

I find this version of RYL more helpful than the last. Usually if I'm thinking of clicking, I'll let the mouse hover over it, and up pops the first few words of the first post. It helps me get an idea of what's in there, combined with the label.

I know how you're feeling, I'm not feeling all that different myself. Please stay safe and strong, I've no idea who you are but I care about you.

Perhaps the answer is not to read the threads labelled *adult*, they are posted with warnings for exactely that reason. Please dont hurt yourself babe. You are better then that. The very point is that the actions of these men make you feel ill, shows that you will never be like them. Hang in there.
Although I think as much as it may annoy you that there are alot of posts about sex, this is a support website and people should be able to talk about whatever they need to, to help them cope. Perhaps a option would be to put a *sexual content* option in with the other warnings?
-Aimee

Hope the surgery goes ok, will be thinking of you.
Please please please don't stay away, cos loads of us really care about you

xxxx