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Left alone and my first thought is, I can go cut myself, got a nice new blade and I can get the blood to heal me, to prove to me that I'm in control of me, hoping that by writing this the urge will pass, but...

...but does it really help?

I'm sorry, what else might make the urges pass?

Cutting

I mean, what else other than that?

It might seem like the only option and the only thing that will help in the moment, I totally get that, but it doesn't really help in the long term, or even short term.

Can you talk to someone, listen to some music, draw, write, scream, punch pillows?

No we are all alone, don't want to breathe, life is just so hard.