illness
 

ive had this gut stomach illness thing for the past year ish now. and its relli horrible, stops me going out, makes me feel relli ill, like today im feelin relli bad so i havent gone into college. i have some appointment tomorrow with this person bit more herbal and alternative to normal medicine i think. but i know that some things like what ive got can be streesed based, becos of anxiety and depression, things like that.
has neone else had nething maifest itself physically becos of si and sh. i dont know if its related but tbh it probably could be, ive had so many other tests done and nothing physically is wrong with me. i dont want it to be psycological becos i dont want to have to talk to neone about the things that bother me and upset me. i hate having to do that.
things for me atm are getting progresively worse. im feeling in myself relli awful all the time and i dont want it to make my stupid illness ne worse. idont know, i just wud like to know if neone else has had a similar thing happen to them. ne advice or just some understand wud be great.
sorry to go on and on.

hey kit,

*hugs* you never say your feeling this crap on msn? talk to me im here to listen. i really hope some good comes of your appointment tomorrow.
take care ok and remember you can always talk to me!

.rob.

It very well could be related. I have severe PMS and that is primarily psychologically rooted. I learnt early on to hide my feelings for my own protection, but they couldn't help but manifest in other ways - i.e. physically. I hope your appointment helps. Let us know how it goes...

What troubles you about talking to people about your feelings? What happened when you tried to in the past?

*cuddles* I've been disabled for the last 6 years and know how you feel huns. I really hope that you can find ways of reducing it :) keep going, reducing stress and such should really help you get better. My illness has kept in housebound for a long time, but now I am getting better myself and all the stress is lifting. Take care xxxx

because, i hate to be cliched, but u know wen people 'relli dont understand' or ur just another person. i hate having to actualy come out and say how i feel. the instant i do, i cry, and it makes me feel awful and i get embarrassed and cry so so so easily. and it makes everything worse and i just want to be on my own. so its not fun

.. and when they try to understand, or they do, what then?

How might you help people to understand?

i dont kno, i just feel stupid for making such a big deal about it. and i want to get out of the situation and wished i hadnt sed nething. its so uncomfortable

It is a big deal for you though, right? And that's ok. Not everyone gets that, but some people might. Someone who cares enough to understand.

yeah it is, and i know people dont always get it, but its trying to show someone whatsimportant to u. it just feels like half the time its a wasted effort. people dont always want to understand properly. i dont know. try not to think about it most of the time. avoid situations where it may come up