Afraid of recovery?
 

Here recently, I’ve just been afraid to actually continue with recovery. Like deep down, I know I want to be okay but I’m scared that maybe it’s not all that’s it’s cracked up to be and nothing will actually change. Has anyone else ever felt that way?

Yes totally. I feel like being sick is comfortable sometimes and being well is scary.... but that's really quite a bad outlook. But that's why I feel resistance to getting help sometimes. It will change if you get help and that is scary... but it is for the best in the long run!

I can relate to this too. I think that sometimes we get so used to how things are and I often worry that maybe recovery will somehow feel worse than I feel now. Recovery is a journey and you don't have to take huge steps all at the one time. Take it at your own pace but don't give up on the process, I'd hope that with time recovery would become your norm and it would feel much better than you do now. Good luck with everything.

This said exactly what I wanted to say. Being unwell your in a bubble/comfort zone and although its unpleasant you know what to expect but also, stepping out of it and recovering (even just a little) is a good thing although might seem scary especially at first.

Usually when things get a bit tough for me I started thinking about how I could just become ill again/cut again or whatever and self destruct cause I know what that's like but the more you come out of that comfort zone and stay out for longer periods each time it gets easier and things actually change but i totally understand where your comming from.

I know what you mean. Change is very scary.