Parenting. Husbands. Life!
 

Hi all. Sorry to make a new thread but I couldn't find anywhere to put this. Struggling so much right now and pulling all nighters with a collicky baby then going to work all day while my husband sleeps all night :( he tried to take her tonight and I had to take over as he couldn't cope. I messed up and cut for the first time in two years and it almost broke my marraige as he didn't understand. Now I just feel trapped and tired. Don't get me wrong I love my husband and my daughter is the main thing keeping me going, she's amazing, but I have no choice but to stick this front up and pretend everything's fine. I want nothing more right now then to go to bed and sleep for a week but doubt I will get more then two hours if I manage to settle the baby. I can't do it much longer and I'm scared if I cut again my husband will leave me and take her.

Do you have any professional support?
Sounds like you could do with some help.

*hugs* I know the feeling.

Where do your parents, sister, brother live , if you have them? Sometimes people are willing to lend a hand but need to be told they are needed first. Or maybe a teen babysitter at least once a week...she watches the baby while you catch up on your sleep debt, and you are still there if something urgent happens? At some point you have to get some sleep even if it costs something.