I am scared to leave the flat.
 

As above.

I feel as though I am isolating myself. I am physically scared of going outside and the thought of going outside is enough to bring on a panic attack. Once I actually get out I am fine but I lack the motivation to actually go out. If I am meeting someone I am more liable to go out because I hate to let other people down.

My friend recently said that she couldn't meet for coffee any more. So that's one day that I am not going out. My aunt likes to go swimming most weeks with me but sometimes she texts me saying that she cannot go. So I don't go. I won't be able to go swimming for the next two weeks due to the fact that it's the school holidays and the kids stress me out. So I am going to be stuck indoors.

I have a psych appointment on Thursday and I am scared to go. It doesn't help that the cmht is in the old psych unit so therefore I have bad memories of the place. But I don't feel up to meeting my psych and cpn. I feel like phoning my cpn on Wednesday and saying that I am not attending. or not turning up and not answering the phone. But part of me thinking that it's a bad idea because my psych is a lovely man and my cpn is a good one too .

Can anyone help me to go out? Or at least persuade me to go to the psych appointment?

Hey Hyasinth , I feel your issues personally .
If you can't go out don't no point putting yourself through stress.
Maybe text call your CMHt to cancel the appt and make one when you are comfy?

I could ask but I doubt my cpn can do it because she has appointments before and after. I am meeting her half an hour before my psych appointment so I can mention that I am feeling nervous.

I don't know why I am scared of meeting my psych. He is a nice person and I know he has no grounds to section me. I have another thread about possibly being depressed and the worse that can happen is that he thinks that I am depressed and I come away with a prescription for antidepressants.

It's important to see him because I haven't seen him for over a year. It is also my care and treatment plan review. But getting the motivation to go there is the biggest problem for me.

I just realised that I have increased suicide and SI feelings too. I guess that the best thing is to force myself to go to my psych appointment and be honest with him.

Do you think that it is a good idea to print off this thread and show it to my psych?