Eurgh, f a b. //potential trigger//
 

Back in February I took an OD, was found by my flatmate and was rushed into the local accident and emergency department, and if that wasn't bad enough, it's where I work, so I had my colleagues, and to an extent, friends, treating me. Anyway, from there I got sectioned and admitted to a psychiatric hospital for three and a half weeks, where I seemed to be making a fantastic recovery, until recently. Over the past three days I seem to be relapsing slightly, my moods are beginning to swing again, I'm finding it harder to drag myself out of bed, I'm finding it a huge deal to just work up the courage to leave the house and go to the local shop, which is a two second walk away, I find myself avoiding the phone, social situations again, etc. Last thing I need and want is to end up back in there.

I can't see myself attempting again, I'm not that low, but low enough to make me see a change in myself. Low enough to see myself slowly relapsing back.

It's good that you are able to recognise when you are slipping, is there anyone you could contact/talk to about this to help prevent it getting worse?

I have the number to a crisis line with the mental health team but I don't feel like I'm in a crisis, I'm just slowly becoming more indifferent to absolutely everything, the worst thing is everything in my life is slowly getting sorted but I just can't help myself slipping again. I've got an appointment with the GP again on Wednesday so I guess I'll just talk to them