Lost it in front of partner
 

So I have this boyfriend which is new for me.
Last night various things happened which just pushed me over the edge and I just lost it completely. Crying, throwing pillows, yelling, screaming, going silent, etc.
It's the first time he's seen me like that.
He just went all quiet, I'm scared he won't want to deal with being with someone like me.
I don't really know what I want from this thread?

It's difficult when that happens. I've been with my man 9 years and I still convince myself when I lose it that he'll kick me out.
Look at it this way, if he can't handle you at your worst, he doesn't deserve you at your best.
I do hope it works out tho.
*hugs*