I don't even know what to write here.
 

Yesterday I found out dog is dying of cancer, and my cousin has been in a car accident and is now undergoing the same type of surgery I had to have at 11, which traumatized me for over a decade. And I just failed my biology test. I'm probably going to fail out of school for the third time because I'm not doing well. I used to be an Opera singer but I injured my voice and it was getting better but now it's not. The pain is terrible. My throat burns. And the doctor said that ordinary aspirin and stuff like that won't help it. So now I'm having nightmares about the surgery and I can't stop thinking about how I'm a failure at school and at being a singer, because I broke my voice, and it hurts physically and emotionally and I'm having SH urges for the first time in years and I feel fat and I feel ugly and I feel incompetent.

I feel... God, I don't even know. I need this to go away. I need to be magically transported to a world in which I'm not a failure and I didn't break my voice and there's no more nightmares.

Sounds like you have a huge amount on your plate right now.

Do you have people you can speak with about this in real life?

Thank you so much for replying. I can try to talk to my husband about it. I feel so overwhelmed right now that talking at all is hard, much less talking about issues.

That makes sense

Maybe try focusing on one issue at a time as that can feel less overwhelming